Blitzen was winding up and heading down the hard road last when out of the corner of her eye, she noticed my phone. “Wow, is that a new case? I really like it, it matches your ipad case – see?” Now if only had the ability to move things with my mind, I could conjure up some flashy or interesting visual glitter to break the cycle before it starts every time.
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We had a really great weekend with friends. It was a good thing – we needed a break from our angst and drama. A change of scenery and people sometimes is a miraculous thing. Blitzen and company made lovely little ‘gingerbread’ houses. It was a group activity, Blitzen listened to the instructions but she didn’t quite understand some of the finer details of house construction. She did not flip out – she just called me over and said, “Carrie, I don’t get it.” So I explained in a different way, gave just a wee bit of assistance and she was on her way. And she put more candy on the house than in her stomach and then went to the snack table to eat a hard boiled egg and some cheddar cheese.
Freeze time, step out of it, go spend like 5 years studying trauma and child brain development, become an expert in managing the behaviors of children with trauma, spend a lot of time with smart people that advocate for mental health care reform and awareness, and come right back to this moment. I spend a lot of time worrying that I am screwing up a bit in my on the job training here and by the time I figure it all out, Blitzen will be ________ (insert horrible scenario of your wildest and most morbid imaginings here).
I’d also like to meditate an hour a day, do yoga an hour a day and watch tv. It is probably not healthy that my heart rate goes through the roof the moment that I walk in the door every night. Make that 2 hours a day of meditation. So, somebody just freeze time and I’ll be right back!
Just accept the freely and genuinely offered hug before I walk out the door. Do not get sassy and then chase me down the block for said hug after I leave in the morning. Of course, it is good exercise….
No longer my favorite months. It is a really hard time for Blitzen as it is for many kids in care. And truly, all the downtime is not our friend – the schedule and the routine are our friends. Thank goodness we have school today, thank goodness.
Bedtime story time
A kid who loves to eat fish and vegetables and fruit
Hugs and snuggles
A magnificent partner that loves and supports me and Blitzen even in the most trying of moments
A very long weekend and many many other things. I look forward to carving out some quiet time to be reflect and be grateful.
“It wasn’t yoga, Andrew, it was a contortioner”. Blitzen said in that special 10 year old voice that communicates that everyone over 12 is just too dumb to live.
“Do you mean a contortionist like we saw on America’s Got Talent?” Andrew asked.
Blitzen said, “Yes, and she could put her foot under her chin. Then we made a people pyramid and my teacher helped me so I could be on top.”
Frankly, I have no idea what went down yesterday but I do love Blitzen’s school.