Posts Tagged ‘fairies’

Did you really write all of those fairy notes? Blitzen asked me after a particularly challenging evening.

And I said, Yes, yes, I did, honey.  We were using our imaginations to talk to each other in a way that was really hard as we were getting to know each other.  And remember, you were 8 years old – we were pretending.

Blitzen dissolves into sobs, I knew it. Everything is a lie.

And I reply, Blitzen, I am sorry this is so upsetting to you now.  Lots of moms and kids play games like this.  It is ok to believe in it when you are younger, it helps kids to express hard things. And you remember – we’ve talked about this before. It is ok to believe if you want to believe.

Blitzen looks at me and says bitterly, You never tell me the truth.

And I am feeling very badly now and say, But it is just like Santa Claus, honey.  I wasn’t trying to hurt your feelings or deceive you.  It was fun to pretend that the magic existed.

Blitzen, with shock and awe, Are you telling me that you are Santa!!!????!!!

And then I just give up, Oh, Blitzen, come on. You told me before Christmas last year that you knew that I was Santa and you didn’t believe any more, remember??!!!

Blitzen grudgingly agrees that she had, indeed, said this.  And then says, but now you are admitting it!!!


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November and December

No longer my favorite months.  It is a really hard time for Blitzen as it is for many kids in care.  And truly, all the downtime is not our friend – the schedule and the routine are our friends.  Thank goodness we have school today, thank goodness.

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Are a therapeutic tool.  Who knew?  Our morning angst and drama has significantly decreased now that we can be in constant walkie talkie contact. (Of course it has only been a few days, we’ll see if it has lasting impact.)

Blitzen to Carrie, “Carrie, are you getting dressed?”

Carrie to Blitzen, “Yes, are you getting dressed?”

Blitzen to Andrew, “I’d like a bagel with cream cheese, please. I am almost done. I am coming downstairs.”

Andrew to Blitzen, “I left the guinea pig treats by their cage, over.”

And on it goes.  The constant stress of a yelling kid – “Where are you? Where were you? I can’t see you and it is stressing me out!!” Ok, the last part was always silent but we knew it was there.  We are either testing a new and fantastic approach that will help develop secure attachment or training Blitzen to be a trucker.  Doesn’t matter – both would be useful.

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Fairy Notes

In late August, shortly after our move, Blitzen stopped making fairy houses and stopped writing notes to “her” fairies.  They didn’t come up in conversation for two months.

When Carrie went on her trip at the end of October, Blitzen renewed her interest in fairies.  She wrote a note to the fairies every evening sharing the events and anxieties of the day, with a little groveling for mermaid tails thrown in:


Every morning of Carrie’s trip, Blitzen awoke to the comfort of a cheery note from Aretha, Edda and Sparkler.  When Carrie returned home, fairy notes stopped.  Until last night, after an anxious, post-family visit squabble with Carrie:


Remember how mad Blitzen was when therapist #2 told her she was living a fairy lie?  Turns out, Blitzen knows exactly when and how to make fairy correspondence work for her.

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‘Would you please bring me a mermaid tail?  I am so sad, really sad.  I had a fight with my mom and I just couldn’t help it.  I just act up when I am sad.’

And there was more, which I can’t quite remember.  I meant to scan a copy of this note this morning because it is all the more heartbreaking and adorable when you see it, written on the little pieces of scrap notepaper, full of phonetic spellings and sloppy 9 year old handwriting.

Blitzen got angry with me the other evening  – I know, you are shocked! – and I said, ‘Blitzen, I just don’t want to fight so I am going to bed.’  And I did.  A little while later, I heard her asking Andrew to verify the spelling ‘tail’ and then ‘fight’.  Soon after, she came up to my room to show me the note that she had written all by herself to the fairies.

‘Usually, I ask you to help me but I wrote it by myself,’ Blitzen said as she showed it to me.  Indeed, she had done it all by herself.

You will not be surprised to find out that the fairies wrote back and let Blitzen know that it is ok to feel sad and mad and even have fights sometimes because Carrie and Andrew love her no matter what.  The fairies also said that writing down your feelings is a really good way to express yourself and they look forward to more notes.

They did not bring a mermaid tail but they did leave a small bottle of glittery nail polish.

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We had one heck of a Halloween celebration on Saturday before I left town.

First, the agency threw a party and it was mostly great.  They had a haunted house which was not great.  I really don’t know what they were thinking – oh let’s put a bunch of traumatized kids in a room with weird noises and creepy people in costumes that jump out at you as you walk by.  Needless to say, we didn’t stay in the haunted house until the end although we attempted to do it 3 times.  I’ll say this for Blitzen, the kid is not a quitter!  There were many fun, not scary things too – pumpkin decorating (Dasher named her pumpkin Curly Shirley for reasons none of us can fathom and carried it around lovingly all day), cupcake decorating, a little costume parade, spooky stories that were not too spooky, and trick or treating.  All good.

Second, we hosted a Halloween party at our house immediately following the agency party.  I really don’t know what I was thinking.  It was scarier than the haunted house.  But in the end, it was a success.  Both of Blitzen’s sisters came over and 2 of her brothers.  Now interacting with the brothers outside of an agency supervised environment had never happened before. I think all the kids enjoyed it.  We added a couple of Blitzen’s school friends into the mix to keep things lively.  And lively it was – the neighbor came up to complain about the noise twice. Thank goodness for the backyard or he might of called the cops.

Blitzen dressed up a greek goddess (Athena, I think) and added her own accessory – a platinum blonde wig a la Lady Gaga.  It was quite the outfit.  She went around telling people that she was a professional greek goddess. As opposed to an amateur, I suppose.  Originally, she was going to be a mummy but the mummy outfit that we purchased was too itchy, she claimed.  Or perhaps too boring after 2 weeks of wearing it around the house.  So we allowed to her use her own funds to purchase costume number 2.  Andrew explained that it would take an awful lot of guinea pig cage cleaning to earn that money back but she was insistent.  She had to get  a new get-up.  Dasher created her own outfit – a gangster fairy.  Apparently she thought this up all on her own and it was really quite cute – fairy outfit with a little pink biker jacket.  And Dancer was Beyoncé, of course.  The girls all looked great and seemed to have a (mostly – only 2 bouts of crying) relaxed and fun day.

I am sad to be missing the trick or treating fun tonight.  I am glad that not-really-a-hurricane-Sandy didn’t ruin the big, candy filled day.

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Nobody cried.  Good start.

Drop off was kind of crazy, as I guess it probably always is on the first day of school.  Blitzen was looking really nervous, like it she might get all melty.  But she held it together and from all reports, she jumped right in and had a great day.

In the morning, when we were getting ready to leave the house, Blitzen packed 3 necklaces.  I asked why and she said, ‘For my friends, in case I make some.’  I convinced her to leave the necklaces at home and told her that we should focus our gift giving on special occassions and definitely not at school.

She decided to take her box of fairy dust  to school instead.  I thought that would be ok.  She later reported that, ‘Most of the kids were kind of interested in my fairy dust.’  Not surprising, Blitzen, you and your fairy dust are kind of interesting.

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